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\nComment by Stella on 02 Aug 2009 at 2:27 pm<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n
Hi Karen,<\/span><\/p>\n
First of all I have to tell you I haven\u2019t read the book yet, I am hesitant just now because I am living in a state of hypervigilence and am triggered by so many things, but especially reading or seeing accounts of abuse. So I avoid these things like the plague. Haven\u2019t watched tv in about a year, it\u2019s so bad right now.<\/span><\/p>\n
I am 47 yrs old, I\u2019ve been in therapy for over a year now and am officially diagnosed with CPTSD with dissociation, depression, anxiety and social phobia, but I have to tell you, the more I read the more I am convinced there\u2019s more to it and that perhaps my therapist is just being cautious with me. It\u2019s been a rough year, never thought that starting therapy for anxiety attacks, depression and social phobia would lead me down such an unfamiliar and previously unfathomable path.<\/span><\/p>\n
My question to you is this: was there ever a time when you were in the thick of things in therapy, where you felt as though you no longer trusted that your therapist was dealing straight with you, or perhaps wasn\u2019t doing everything necessary to keep that level of trust, and if so, how did you overcome this?<\/span><\/p>\n
I so appreciate the strength and courage it took you to stay the course, I have an enormous amount of respect for anyone who faces that kind of darkness with determination to see the light again someday. I consider you a positive role model, someone to look to for that glimmer of hope that is so needed on this kind of journey!<\/span><\/p>\n
God bless,<\/span><\/p>\n
Stella<\/span><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n
Dear Stella,<\/span><\/p>\n
I appreciate you writing and sharing your story. \u00a0I understand how reading any book on abuse could set you off in a negative way. \u00a0As a matter of fact, during my therapy years I couldn’t read any books on my illness either. \u00a0I never even saw the movie Three Faces of Eve until after integration, and then only with Dr. Baer by my side. \u00a0I still haven’t made it through the movie Sybil nor have I finished the book. \u00a0Please don’t be so hard on yourself. \u00a0When you’re ready, and only then, will you be able to read stories on abuse. \u00a0I hope you’ll read mine.<\/span><\/p>\n
There may be a way for you to learn more about Switching Time, and that is by simply reading the questions sent in and my answers on this blog. \u00a0That will give you a sense of knowing my story without too much detail. \u00a0I know it takes time to heal, and acknowledging what you’ve shared with me is an important step in moving forward. <\/span><\/p>\n
Regarding therapy, yes, there were a few times when I felt confused and doubted that I could trust Dr. Baer. \u00a0That’s a normal part of the therapeutic relationship. \u00a0It takes time to build trust. \u00a0My trust for Dr. Baer took years of give and take before I was able to\u00a0feel secure enough to begin to use that foundation\u00a0of trust and move forward. \u00a0Trusting anyone is\u00a0hard work after a lifetime of being hurt. \u00a0How did I deal with\u00a0my moments of doubt? \u00a0Dr. Baer helped me and I would let go, and allowed myself a chance to experience something unfamiliar: faith. \u00a0I prayed for God to guide me, and I trusted my own instincts.<\/span><\/p>\n
I believe your determination will help you see the light; you’re already well on your way. \u00a0I will keep in you in thought and prayer for a safe journey to wellness.<\/span><\/p>\n
Thank you so much for all your compliments! \u00a0I wish you all my best.<\/span><\/p>\n
Karen<\/span><\/p>\n
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