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\nComment by Kimberly on 23 Sep 2009 at 9:26 pm<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n
Karen,<\/span><\/p>\n
I came home to find more documentation from my past, which I have been working on to fill the memory gaps in my life. The tears poured, which is very unusual for me. I do not recall having braces before the age of 16 or having them removed with pliers by my father out of his anger for my aunt who had them put on for me. How can I not remember such a terrible experience?<\/span><\/p>\n
How do you get through the day? These thoughts never leave unless someone else takes over. Did you have others to talk to before you integrated?<\/span><\/p>\n
Kimberly<\/span><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n
Dear Kimberly,<\/span><\/p>\n
There was so much I couldn’t recall of my past, too! However, after integration all the memories were filled in. Finally, my puzzle, my life was complete. You may be feeling heart-broken and sad. There must be a reason for that. Please allow your tears to fall.<\/span><\/p>\n
I’m so sorry for the pain you endured. My alters removed such horrific memories in order for me to survive. Maybe that’s why you can’t remember. \u00a0Your may be protecting yourself from knowing the horror you once experienced. \u00a0When the time is right, you will remember all, but only when you’re able to deal with the pain. Please don’t give up. I care.<\/span><\/p>\n
For me, some days are still difficult, but as time passes on, each day becomes lighter. As you realize the extent of your suffering, those painful memories will rise up and fall back time and again, until they settled down to a quiet hum. I know it’s different for each of us, but I believe that you will some day understand what I’m sharing. For today, when those dark thoughts resurface, try facing them for what they are, a past memory, not a present trauma. When I feel that way, I try to convince myself that there is no room in the present for those dark thoughts.<\/span><\/p>\n
I heard my alters speak within me during their conference meetings each night, but not during the day, while I switched in and out. I believe my alters communicated what was best for me with Dr. Baer. Sometimes during therapy I felt I didn’t belong there or have anything to say. It was hard. But it was at that time I started to heal.<\/span><\/p>\n
There were times I never thought I’d make it, but I did. I believe you are doing the best you can! Have faith and your healing will follow. I wish you well.<\/span><\/p>\n
Karen <\/span><\/p>\n
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