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\nComment by Isabelle on 04 Oct 2009 at 10:09 pm<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n
Dear Karen,<\/span><\/p>\n
During the time you were being abused do you remember the alters switching in and out? Did they shift quickly\/ Who entere the abuse and who exited the abusive act? I am trying to understand the alters job during an attack, whether there were more than one present? Did you get sick afterward? And what about bruises, cuts and private part trauma? Were there visible signs the next day? Sorry for so many personal questions. I am interested for my studies on rape and dissociation. I\u2019d like to compare your mpd experience with a woman without mpd who has experienced rape and claims not to be in her body at the time.<\/span><\/p>\n
Thank you kindly,<\/span><\/p>\n
Isabelle<\/span><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n
Dear Isabelle,<\/span><\/p>\n
That’s a tough question that requires a two-fold answer. As a child I wasn’t aware of what was happening. Once the abuse started I would “go-away” and return at home as I lay my head on my pillow. I would have known that I was taken somewhere, removed from my bed with force, but not all that had transpired while “away.” As I grew older, I knew something more sinister was happening. I would have signs that I had been sexually abused, but without being able to explain it. \u00a0There were signs such as no panties, blood-stains, and unexplained bruising or soreness in my private areas. My alters removed all that from me. I remember my mother\u00a0questioning where my panties were. \u00a0I couldn’t explain where they would disappear to; I sometimes told my mom I threw them away because I had an accident.<\/span><\/p>\n
As my alters integrated my puzzling memories started coming together and finally made sense to me. It was at that time, during and particularly after integration, when the entire abusive act would be visible to my memory and I could form one whole picture. Yes, I was severely abused, but my alters contained the trauma until I was able to deal with it all in the safety of therapy.<\/span><\/p>\n
There were several alters switching in and out during each abusive act. \u00a0That’s why no one alter had a complete memory of any episode. I would guess I switched more than three times per episode.<\/span><\/p>\n
When a woman is raped, I could understand her trying to remove herself mentally from the act in order to survive. I believe the only difference is that a multiple switches between altered parts where someone without multiplicity experiences the entire attack.<\/span><\/p>\n
Thank you for your questions and for trying to understand more about rape through my eyes. As I answered your question it\u00a0occurred to\u00a0me that I rarely write that I am a victim of rape. So many times I refer myself as a multiple but never acknowledge the fact that I was repeatedly raped. My multiplicity was a result of that. <\/span><\/p>\n
Karen<\/span><\/p>\n
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