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\nComment by Cheyenne Woman on 28 Jan 2010 at 9:39 a<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n
Dear karen,<\/span><\/p>\n
I am an Indian woman and proud of my faith.I came across your book in the school library and it drew me into a pain my mother shared with me long ago. I believe she was like you but was cast out by her family as an evil spirit. I never believes so. sadly, she suicided when I was eight from the shame that so many laid upon her, i know this because she had left many journals and my father presented them to me on my 21st. birthday. I am shocked by her past abuse including that of my father. Why my father never read these journals I can\u2019t decide.I would not have given them to my daughter if him. I thought about your story of continuous abuse and see that in my mothers story. Thanks you for telling your story it helped me understand my mother’s.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n
Dear Cheyenne Woman,<\/span><\/p>\n
I appreciate you sharing your story. Though sad, it’s wonderful to have received your mother’s journals to help you understand her better. I am not a therapist and can only share my thoughts and opinions. Maybe your father never read the journals in fear of knowing more than he wished to? Maybe he did read them and decided not to say and give them to you as a gift to help you get to know your mother. Whatever your father’s reason doesn’t matter at this time. What’s most important is hearing your mother’s voice in the written words of her journals. What a precious gift and priceless knowledge.<\/span><\/p>\n
I believe if you have found similarities in my story that helped you understand your mother then she may have been a multiple without knowing it. She may not have understood the pain she was in. If she had written about being abused and shared that her family deemed her as evil, then how sad for her to suicide before receiving professional and supportive help. I felt devastated when my family thought the same of me. I’m sure your mother felt hurt, alone, and sad. I’m sure she may have not thought clearly before she chose to suicide. I believe her inner pain was so horrific that she may have thought you would be better off without her. How unfortunate she didn’t understand; she may have been able to live her life if she had received the appropriate help.<\/span><\/p>\n
What you have shared with me will take time to absorb and overcome. You didn’t mention whether you are talking with someone yourself. \u00a0In my opinion, if I were you, I would talk with someone about my thoughts and feelings.<\/span><\/p>\n
Wishing you peace and a sense of calm as you continue to journey through learning your mother’s story.<\/span><\/p>\n
Karen<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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