{"id":2987,"date":"2012-09-19T21:20:52","date_gmt":"2012-09-20T02:20:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.switchingtime.com\/?p=2987"},"modified":"2012-09-19T21:20:52","modified_gmt":"2012-09-20T02:20:52","slug":"karen-answers-penny-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.switchingtime.com\/?p=2987","title":{"rendered":"Karen answers Penny"},"content":{"rendered":"

Comment by Penny on 07 Mar 2012 at 8:05 pm<\/p>\n

Did you read the religious fiction book about God called The Shack by Paul Young? Do you believe in pain? Do you believe your life was a metaphor in why you survived? Where was god while you were being abused? How is it possible you survived? How does god look to you? Are you a believer in angels, and why? Many questions but I want to know you.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Dear Penny,<\/p>\n

Yes, I did read The Shack<\/em> by Paul Young and found it quite interesting. I believe there was a reason I survived. I have faith and believe my multiplicity was a gift from God. \u00a0I’m thankful for the help I received and know that I was never left alone.<\/p>\n

You ask where was God while I was being abused. Well, I can’t answer that except to say He was with me, keeping me safe in His arms through dissociation. I had to believe this for this is how I survived. I survived knowing that if I died I would go to heaven. I longed to die and be at peace. I longed for comfort and for someone to care for me. As a child there was no adult I could turn to that wasn’t within me as an alter. I knew God\u00a0couldn’t stop my abuse because He couldn’t physically stop my abusers, but He ultimately provided me with the best help He could… a coping mechanism called dissociation. God never once left me.<\/p>\n

How does God look to me? God is a feeling within my heart, and the way I envision Him is how He appears to me. I believe it’s a personal relationship, and it’s the warmth I feel that matters most. Regarding angels, yes, I do believe in angels. I believe angels surround us and comfort us. I believe this because I feel blessed. It’s a feeling that gives me hope and strength to do more.<\/p>\n

Please know that my faith played a big part during my healing. During therapy Dr. Baer and I rarely discussed religion, except about the abuse I suffered from the priest. \u00a0Yet, I know I always felt comforted by something other than Dr. Baer. I had the best of both worlds, God, Angels and Dr. Baer.<\/p>\n

Thank you for caring.<\/p>\n

Karen<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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