Comment by The Stampede on October 27, 2008 12:32 pm<\/a><\/span><\/p>\nDear Karen,<\/span><\/p>\nLike many others I was diagnosed about six years ago. My husband and I have been dealing with it together for the last two years. It has been a tough road for me. I am just an alter who was created just for the sole purpose to have a \u201cnormal life\u201d. (Whatever normal is) I functioned remarkably good for eight years. Once my father passed away my internal world that I didn\u2019t know existed came crashing in. I was diagnosed not long after that and have been in therapy every since.<\/span><\/p>\nI now have a wonderful therapist after many tries and am grateful. The problem now is I want my own life but insiders say I am not ready for integration. I am so mentally exhausted and physically drained. I don\u2019t know that I can see it through. I feel that I may never intergrate because I have such a complex system.<\/span><\/p>\nI struggle with the horrific memories I recieve these days and I in good moral feel my alters even though did what they did to survive are wrong. It makes me question my religion. I fight with if I will go to heaven or hell when I die.<\/span><\/p>\nThe reason I am telling you all of this is because I feel like you know what I am going through. This is the first time that I see my struggles in black and white and I feel they are real. There are some days I just feel it isn\u2019t real and any mintue this horrible dream will be over. It isn\u2019t though, I never wake up.<\/span><\/p>\nHow did you find the strength? I find most of my strength in wanting to be here to watch my sons grow up. I just worry that will not be enough strength to get me through the rest of my journey. I have so many more miles to travel and I am down to a mere crawl. Thank you for Listening.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\nDear Stampede,<\/span><\/span><\/p>\nThank you for sharing your story.\u00a0 <\/span>I totally understand all that you’ve written.\u00a0 <\/span>I also had\u00a0 <\/span>alters who kept my life as “normal” as possible.\u00a0 <\/span>This is how I survived each day.\u00a0 <\/span>My alters were born to keep the trauma separate from my everyday life.\u00a0 <\/span>I can understand how your father’s death triggered chaos.\u00a0 <\/span>My system became chaotic at the birth of my daughter during a cesarean section.\u00a0 <\/span>Unfortunately, like you, my past came flooding back and knocked me down. It took many years to get back up, and I did.<\/span><\/p>\nIn time, as your alters accept therapy and achieve trust with your therapist, I think you will start to change and integration may finally happen. It took many years, actually nine years before my integration was completed.\u00a0 <\/span>Dr. Baer had to get each alter on board.\u00a0 <\/span>It was exhausting, mentally and physically. However, with you finding the right therapist, I have faith you will make it through.\u00a0 <\/span>Having patience is hard but necessary for your alters to gain the strength needed before integration can be accomplished. Please have faith and don’t give up. I fought against the inconceivable and you can too!<\/span><\/p>\nI found strength in journaling, accepting my past, and releasing most of my pain.\u00a0 <\/span>I fed off Dr. Baer’s strength until I could manage to build strength of my own.\u00a0 <\/span>I admit, seeing my story in black and white was therapeutic.\u00a0 <\/span>I had journaled all through my life, and my written words were a necessary part of my healing. I thought of my journaling as venting my anger\u00a0 <\/span>and my pain became less of a burden for me to carry, and being less of a burden, I was able to function better.<\/span><\/p>\nI wish you inner peace and a sense of calm as you continue your journey to wholeness.<\/span><\/p>\nKaren<\/span><\/p>\n\u00a0<\/p>\n
Stampede also writes this to the Child Molester.<\/span><\/p>\n\nComment by The Stampede on October 27, 2008 12:59 pm<\/span><\/p>\nChild Molestor,<\/span><\/p>\nYou are a very sick man. No child ever asks to be abused. No little girl or boy ever asks for it to just happen to them. They aren\u2019t standing in a line with their hand raised in hopes someone will pick them to hurt them and break their faith in a good human existance.<\/span><\/p>\nI feel if you rehabilitated yourself you need to allow someone else to help you, a professional would be wise, because you didn\u2019t do the job. I worked in a group home for perpetrators and I honestly believe that perpetrators can be rehabilitated but it requires a lot of hard work and revising your thinking. You clearly are one of the ones that has been rehabilitate thus far. I am not saying you won\u2019t ever be, but at this moment in your life, you need to be real with yourself because you aren\u2019t rehabilitated.<\/span><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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