Comment by Betty on 17 Aug 2009 at 9:43 am

Karen, what does it feel like without the alters?

Betty

Dear Betty,

I feel alive.  I never lost an alter through integration, my alters are me.  We are one and the same.  As each alter integrated and merged within me, I grew more complete.  I gained their sense of self in addition to me.  Each alter was one part of me, now each alter is blended within me and I am one woman with a variety of interests.

I admit, there were a few moments that I wished an alter would take over when I felt stressed, but now there’s no need.  I’ve become quite used to being without their individuality.  There are days I may feel a bit more like one of the alters than another, like Sandy when I deal with my mother, Katherine when I need to organize, Holdon when I’m driving and can find some place without a map, etc., but the alters are no longer a separate part of me.  I am all of them.

Thank you for your question.

Karen