Comment by Heather on 12 Oct 2009 at 9:45 pm

Dear Karen,

Did all symptoms of depression, anxiety and panic attacks go away for you after integration?

Heather

Dear Heather,

Yes, most of my symptons did go away after integration. For a while at least. I felt exhilarated, had no anxiety, and no longer suffered from panic attacks. But as time passed, I did feel a bit depressed now and then, but it never lasted longer than a day. Something would trigger past memories and I would feel ill.  What is interesting is the fact that I was able to recognize those dark moments and change my thoughts or talk to Dr. Baer.  After being a multiple with alter help, adjusting to reality as one person can be overwhelming. No alter chaos, but also no alter help. Nowhere to hide from myself. Yes, it was stressful at times. How could it not be? What worked for me was to take a deep breath, calm myself using all that I have learned in therapy, and try to re-focus my thoughts elsewhere.

Each of us travels a different journey to wellness, and I am no different. My dark thoughts would come when I felt overwhelmed or unable to sort out my feelings over something I couldn’t comprehend. I always do the best I can. I am a survivor. No longer a victim.

Thank you for your question.

Karen