Comment by Bennett on 19 Nov 2009 at 9:02 am

Dear Karen,

When you switched alters did you ever worry about being hurtful or inappropriate like acting out and committing a crime? Have you ever been arrested for a crime? Have you ever committed a crime and switch feigning innocence by blaming an alter? If you committed a crime and jailed during your alter chaos (what you refer to) years what alter would be punished to that crime? Would Dr. Baer have bailed you out? Did you ever think to murder anyone? God, I would kill if what happened to you would happen to me or someone I knew. I am crazy fascinated in your mind. What intelligence you must have not to act out violently. I admire you but still wonder about my questions?

Bennett

Dear Bennett,

Interesting questions!  No, I have never been arrested for a crime, nor did I commit a crime while in an altered state and blame it on an alter. I believe it’s not in my nature to intentionally commit a crime. I may have been a victim of circumstances, but that doesn’t justify criminal intent. As a multiple, I believe if you are basically a good person, a multiple’s alters will reflect that same tone.

If I were arrested for a crime during alter chaos, and found guilty, I assume I would be punished by the law, in the same way any criminal would.  If arrested, I’m not sure whether Dr. Baer would bail me out. But I do know for sure that no one else would have come to my rescue during my therapy years. I would’ve needed Dr. Baer’s expertise to help me sort through such a thing, possibly through hypnosis, a technique used often during my therapy.

Murder someone? I may have had wishes of someone dying, but not at my hands. As a victim of terrible abuse, it’s only normal for me to have had such thoughts. When hurting as I was, I certainly would favor the one hurting me to be removed, not necessarily in death, but maybe imprisoned for life. Murder?  No. What would that possibly prove? I would be imprisoned for life after already spending a lifetime imprisoned within myself.

Thank you for admiring my ability not to murder my abusers! Murder is never the answer, no matter how angry you become.

Karen