Comment by Anastasia on 14 Feb 2010 at 10:12 pm

Dearest Karen,

Thank you for being an angel in disguise. I have been blessed to read your story and blog. I never knew an abuse victim could love again after being hurt. I am blessed to know despite all your trauma you still believe in God, have faith and forgive those with hardened hearts. You are a true inspiration to me. I have been hurt and can’t see ever loving or feeling loved again. But you help changed my dark thoughts into a flicker of light. I know you have no idea how important that is for me but it is a miracle. I can see the sun shining on this dark morning. Have a blessed life and know how much you are loved. Happy Valentines Day!

Anastasia

Dear Anastasia,

How kind of you to think of me as an angel in disguise! Thank you for your compliment. I am just one of many people hoping to change the world one act of kindness at a time. Sharing my story has given me purpose. It’s true; love is a very powerful emotion. I am fortunate to be able to now experience love. Just like you, I never imagined I could love someone, including myself, but it did happen. It took time to heal, but it’s possible. The stronger I became, the less my past controlled me with dark thoughts.

It took time to heal. What helped me was to no longer allow my abusers to decide my future. Earlier, I felt like a passenger in my own life with my abusers controlling every emotion. If I chose to not to forgive, not to accept my past for what it was, and not to learn to accept love, then my abusers control over me would last forever, whether they were dead or alive. I believe learning to love again set’s you free of your abuse.

I am very happy you can see the sun shining once again. Take those happy thoughts and cherish them. Keep them alive and fresh. Soon those sunny thoughts will replace your dark ones. Hope your Valentine’s Day was a good one! Thank you for loving me.

Wishing you all my best.

Karen