Comment by Diana on 29 Mar 2010 at 4:27 pm

Hi Karen,

I am a depressed woman of 55 who totally felt better after reading the end of your book. Thank you for providing your story with such remarkable faith. Dr. Baer was a good doctor to treat you so many years. If I were a doctor like him I’m not so positive I could handle such a tough case. You are a great team!
 My question, as a woman who lost many years to healing how do you see yourself living? Do you see yourself young at heart or your true age, the alters ages or older? Has the wisdom you gained been in the form of an old soul? What do think God wants from you now?

Blessing to you and your Dr. Baer.

Diana
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Dear Diana,

I am glad to hear you felt better after reading my story, but please know that a book does not replace good therapy. I am not a therapist and can’t give advice, but if you are hurting, please seek help.

My journey was met with many traumas. I could not have healed without guidance. I trust my instincts, but when I was at my lowest and dark thoughts permeated through my walls of resistance, I felt suicidal and temporarily lost faith and vision. I needed help from the outside. Depression takes a toll on one’s spirit. Despite periods of time spent feeling better, past issues can resurface time and again if not dealt with.

I feel young at heart, but with an old soul. Sure, I have traveled through a journey unlike any other, but I don’t feel that I lost myself. I believe my growth was simply on hold for about twenty years. After integration I was able to re-start my life by moving forward without fear of the past. Age is irrelevant to me. I never think of my age or the age my alters were before integration. My friendships come in all ages, too.

I believe God would like to see me use the wisdom I’ve gained from my suffering and journey to encourage hope through sharing my story. I believe I’ve survived for a reason. I believe God provided me with the most creative coping mechanism, multiplicity, for me to survive and share and help others. There is no doubt in my mind that I have work yet to do.

Thank you for your blessings. I wish you all my best.

Karen