Comment by G Wayne, N.J. on 31 Mar 2010 at 8:19 am

Dear Karen,

Just finished reading your book. I can’t believe I am sitting here writing you when my world outside the door is devastating. Our whole town is flooded, no electricity and my laptop will soon die but I might die to. Two days ago I wanted to suicide. Thought I’d wait a day. In the process I picked up your book thinking it would do the trick. Instead I read and fell asleep to wake to horns blaring and being told to evacuate. My family wasn’t going anywhere anytime soon so I lay there finishing reading your book. I could have been helping out in some way but my body and mind froze. I think you know that feeling. Anyway I’m still here in a safe place both physically and mentally. I changed my mind. Seeing floods and people crying and knowing the horror you survived all at the same time made my problems miniscule. Got to go. Do you remember writing you believed things happen for a reason? I think I found reason. As crazy as I sound I dont think I can end my life now because theres too much work to do to help. I am 16 and have three younger sisters who need me, they are 4, 7, and 14. Good book. Made me feel something I never did before.

G

Wayne, N.J.

Dear G,

I’m sorry to hear all that you and your family are going through at this time. I’ve never lived in an area that flooded. I can only imagine how devastating that can be. My prayers are with all those who are working hard to get their lives back on track. Good luck to you.

Thank you for sharing your personal story. I’m so glad you chose not to suicide and “wait” a day. I believe that was fate and meant to be. I can understand you feeling so badly that life appeared to be not worth living, but that’s not you thinking, it’s the dark thoughts that come when you feel depressed and are unable to comprehend the pain your are feeling. Talking to someone can help. Please seek a qualified therapist to help you start your journey to wellness.

I understand the feeling when your mind and body freezes and leaves you feeling paralyzed and unable to help. That’s a feeling of depression. I’ve been there and know that feeling well. It’s hard to fight it off and get moving, but I assure you with help you will come to understand why you become frozen. Once you acknowledge the “why” it becomes easier to move forward and heal.

I am glad you are here to help your sisters and family. And I am glad that my story changed something important within you.  Wishing you all my best for a safe journey.

Karen