Comment by VMK MD on 01 Apr 2010 at 10:45 am

Karen,

After studying multiple personality disorder/dissociative identity disorder for over four years I have come to the conclusion you are the first fully documented case that is full-bodied. I would love to get my hands on your files to gain more knowledge. How can I accomplish this? I traveled ten states and met thirteen MPD patients claiming the illness. I was disappointed in the lack of fact and documentation. Not one, I repeat not one multiple could elaborate, kept journals and no history could be taken for authentication. How can I access your records? I am current with your blog. Great job. Your answers have formed the ground on which I am building my case study. It would be wise if Richard Baer was readily accessible. Your case is the first of it’s kind case.

VMK MD

Dear Dr. VMK,

How interesting!  Dr. Baer also feels my case is the first complete documented case, and I’ll take that as a compliment for me and Dr. Baer.  Since I was a young girl I’ve journaled about everything that happened in my life. Since I wasn’t allowed many friendships and was kept on a tight rein by my abusers, I formed a relationship with my journal, like a child telling all to a best friend. Sadly, in a fit of rage, my mother found my many black and white composition tablets filled with my thoughts and feelings she did not want anyone to see and burned them in the kitchen sink. I was devastated and felt as if I lost my best friend. But I started writing again in therapy many years later. Once I again took pen to paper, my story resumed in my journals.

I was fortunate to find Dr. Baer to accompany me on my journey. I never knew that my writings would eventually help him write a book about my story. It was much easier for me during therapy to describe my past abuse and experiences in a journal rather than talk about it. But therapy is about talking and once trust was established and there was no turning back, I talked. I believe writing helped my alters and me verbalize our inner pain to Dr. Baer. Dr. Baer rarely commented on them or appeared excited to receive my writings, but there I had a sense of calm knowing that I shared them with him. I believe Dr. Baer knew early on that I was to become an intense challenge to treat and he was careful to document everything my alters and I said and kept anything we gave him. In the beginning there was no thought of a book. There was simply an overload of information pouring out of me at a rapid pace and Dr. Baer had to find the way to catch it all to help me heal. It was Dr. Baer’s ability to keep everything organized that kept all our records perfectly in tact. I’m grateful for that. There would be no book if he hadn’t kept everything safe and preserved. My files are stored with Dr. Baer at this time.

Dr. Baer can be found on Facebook. Please contact him there if you would like to discuss accessing information on my therapy. But I have to warn you, there are thousands of pages!  I’m sure my files can’t be released at this time, but maybe a meeting with Dr. Baer will help you along with your interest in gaining knowledge.

Thank you for your compliments! Wishing you all my best.

Karen