Comment by Sue on 30 Jan 2011 at 9:46 pm

Hi Karen,

I have terminal cancer and was reading your story when it came to me how much I wish I could have had alters to distract me from myself during chemotherapy. My chemo treatments did not work therefore the grim prognosis. I wished for strength of any kind and suprised myself by gaining strength from your gentle nature. I am at peace with dying and wanted to know if you are too? If you were to know you were dying from a terminal illness what would you do? I have faith. I want to thank you for your story. People do need people from many walks of life. I was never abused but feel abused. Thank you and Richard Baer for continuing support. I prayed the Novena for you. Bless you both.

Sue

Dear Sue,

Thank you for sharing your story with me at this point in your journey. I will be praying for you as you quiet your heart and receive God’s strength. Today, I send my blessings and pray for you.

“They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

I hope these times are growing and learning times for you and come with a sense of calm and peace in your heart. I have faith, too. And like you, I believe we all need people from all walks in life. We are all here for too short a time and need to make the best of our journey and support each other. Please know I am with you in spirit.

Maybe having alters would have distracted you, but do you really wish to be distracted and not feel every moment of life? Having alters was frustrating because I wasn’t given a choice to feel my own pain and grow from it.

When I’m ready to go, I will most certainly wish to be aware of everything. I want to feel every moment, breathe each breath, and talk to those who mean so much to me. I’m not afraid to die. I’m glad my alters are integrated and that I will be one when my time arrives.

Wishing you peace, my friend…

Karen