Comment by Hallie on 28 Apr 2011 at 6:08 pm

Hey Karen!

First of all, I just want to say how much I respect and admire all that you have gone through and accomplished. I read the book a few years ago and have been fascinated with MPD ever since and hurt for those affected by it. When I discovered this site, I had to write to you and ask a few questions. I had questions for you after reading the book and especially now after reading your blog. Being a strong Christian myself, I had a lot of spiritual questions throughout the book. When I read the epilogue I did not seem to detect any Christian undertones or beliefs, but your answers on the blog seem that you are a believer as well. So, I guess I just wanted to know your spiritual views in your life, if and when you accepted Christ? Do you think God may have given you MPD as a blessing in a form of protecting you and your mind during your childhood? I know there is no answer to why God allows things like that to happen to his beloved children, but I guess I wondered what you thought His plan for you was through all of that. Have you been able to truly forgive those who have abused you? I hope these questions aren’t too personal, but as a praying woman myself I was so encouraged by your blog! I appreciate and support your constant prayers for your readers!   is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea; Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof.” – Psalms 46:1-3

Keep doing all that you are doing, you are a blessing! Adding you to my prayer list

Hallie

Dear Hallie,

Thank you for your kind thoughts, compliments, and especially for asking me about my spiritual beliefs.  Not many have asked about this and I don’t mind answering. No question is too personal for me to answer. I’m a grateful believer in Jesus Christ.

Many years ago, after integration was complete and my journey continued on in therapy, I accepted Jesus through a friend in a McDonald’s parking lot over coffee, an egg McMuffin, and a long discussion. I felt all along that my illness, multiple personality disorder, was a God-sent coping mechanism. God removed most of my pain by providing me with an amazing way to fragment and separate my thoughts and painful memories through dissociation and alter help. I’ve been blessed and I know it! I also believe my meeting Dr. Baer and receiving his care was God’s doing. I have faith and believe there is a reason for everything. God did not prevent the trauma I experienced, but He did create a way for me to survive it. I have forgiven those who have abused me.

I was raised Catholic and continue my spiritual journey at a community church in Texas. I believe God has a plan for me and I’m doing my best to keep my heart and soul open to hear His wisdom.

God bless you.

Karen