Comment by Carol on 12 Aug 2011 at 12:13 pm

Hi Karen,

I am reading the book Switching Time, and have been awestruck at the number of similarities we share. Everything from being overweight without understanding how I got that way to losing time; and so much more. I had to put the book away (temporarily) because I can’t seem to be able to read about integration. I’ll read it eventually.

I know you’ve probably heard lots of people’s stories, and I won’t waste your time with mine. Just as there are many similarities between us, there are differences too. I didn’t experience the awful trauma that you endured. I have always had more communication with the various aspects of myself. I thought they were my conscience.

Dear Carol,

Thank you for sharing! I’m glad you put the book aside for now. I admire that you are able to set limits for yourself as to how much you can handle and take in. I empathize with your concern about integration. I don’t regret my integration. I didn’t lose my alters during integration because they will always be a part of me. My alters merged within me and we are now all one. The only difference is there is no one alter acting out their individual lives. I never felt I lost anyone. I feel whole and maintain the variety of talents and capabilities I received from them.

I’m blessed. It’s amazing to be one woman. On occasion I’ll think I miss my alters, but that thought quickly disappears when I recall the chaos I lived with. Integration gives me a wonderful feeling of freedom. I’m happy and live my life without fear of losing time. To feel a sense of calm and live as one is the greatest gift I ever received.

I would love to know your story! Please share if you want to, here or through my Facebook private message. Everyone has a story and yours is important, too! Sharing will help your healing.

Looking forward to hearing from you.

Karen