Comment by Honeylorraine on 30 Aug 2012 at 4:07 pm

Hi Karen. I learned an unforgettable lesson from your story. Since this happened to you as a child, what gave you hope when everyone let you down? How did you cope when feeling unloved? Were there any positive adult role models and who were they? I never met you, BUT I love you very much! Please keep writing and catch up. You are a gift from ABOVE.

Dear Honeylorraine,

Thank you for your question. What gave me hope was prayer; I prayed all the time. My faith saw me through many difficult times, but then, after many years of trying, I started to fall. I assumed God had given up on me. He did not.  One day my grandmother, my mother’s mother, caught my father abusing me and she prayed non-stop for over six hours. This frightened me beyond belief. Though I didn’t understand all of what she prayed for, she did tell me at that time that she prayed God would put someone in my life to help me when I was older and able to deal with what was happening to me. At the time I believed her. I often wonder why she didn’t report my being abused to the police. My grandmother died long ago, so I’ll never know. Nearly twenty years later, I found Dr. Baer and believe my grandmother’s prayers were finally answered. Dr. Baer never gave up on me and treated me with great respect during eighteen years of therapy.

Though I admit I felt unloved most of my life, there were people who I knew truly loved me and I fed off their compliments and compassion. These were people placed in my life at the right time for me to know that I am a survivor and will get through. I wish I could say they were my family, but they were not. I consider these special God-sent friends my chosen family.

Thank you for your compliments and for loving me! I truly am grateful to hear these words.

Karen